To answer the question about who’s running your life, you’re going to need a complex piece of advanced technology.
The good news is that you’ve probably got one somewhere nearby. The device in question is a tool often used for deep (and shallow) reflection.
I’m talking about a mirror.
Look deep into your own eyes in that mirror and you’ve got your answer. No matter what your circumstances, ideas, and beliefs tell you, you’re the one in charge.
In charge of what? Of your attitude about what’s going on, of your breath, of your observation, your awareness, and your ability to take action of some sort, or to do nothing at all. (nothing wrong with that!)
It’s really that simple. Now, if you find your mind vomiting up reasons why you’re not in charge of your life, notice that you still have a choice. That choice is to believe, to reject, or to simply ignore that stream of rancid thought that comes from gawd knows where and smears itself like a snail trail across the screen of your mind.
And by recognizing that you have that choice, you’ve proven to yourself in a very simple way that you, indeed, are running your own life.
This can be a hard pillow to swallow. (Who swallows pillows, anyways? Except those who dream of eating giant marshmallows…and those folks are just crazy.)
The point here is to start laughing at things. Silly things. Serious things. Doomsday predictions. Local, State, and National News, and all other attempts at reality TV. You can also laugh at the tragedies of history. Come on, give it a try.
Laughter is one of the simplest methods of psychic self defense. No, that’s not defending your mind against psychics–though that would be a good thing to keep in mind.
Instead, it’s about reclaiming your mind, stealing back the throne in the kingdom of your perception, and making your life your own again.
So laugh a little. Then laugh a lot. It’s good for you. And it’s the only way for you to beat the devil. Now you’re thinking I’m Christian, or at least that I’ve lost my mind.
I haven’t. I’m referring to the Devil tarot card, which just refers to the so-called evil of the world. You know…everything that scares you and drags you down into the pits of fear and the crippling paralysis that follows.
But when you laugh at things you’re not supposed to, you win back a little of your mental freedom, and YOU get to decide when you want to feel bad about things…not just because everyone else thinks you should.
And then, when you find yourself wanting to feel bad about things, laugh again!
Listen. You’re headed for a casket or an incinerator, probably faster than you’d expect, so laugh while you’ve got the guts to laugh with, and then do something that makes you happy…deeply, joyously, rapturously happy!
Once you’re in that casket, none of that somber, serious, historitragical shit’s going to matter, so it doesn’t really matter now either. What matters is your life!
After you stretch your face (breaking apart rigid emotional states and worn-out self images), shrug off everything that doesn’t matter (meaning almost everything except flowing more smoothly with your life), then it’s time to do a deep, hearty belly laugh.
If you can’t find it in you to do that, the following video from the Radical Undoing 101 course gives you an exercise that’ll help you to start enjoying more of your life, more of the time.
(secret: you have to actually do the exercise over and over, just like any other exercise you want to make you stronger.)
To learn even more about the power of the laughing breath, check out another video that gets even deeper into how and why it works:
I remember the first time I realized I could start laughing at all the things that used to drag me down. I was at a workshop with the late, great Dr. Christopher Hyatt, and he was making hilarious Hitler references. I found myself caught in a bind. (Much like the bind you might feel your mind twisting into now after reading the dreaded 6 letter combination: “Hitler”)
I wanted to laugh, but I wasn’t used to laughing at things like that. Something felt different that time, and I finally let loose and had a good belly laugh. You know what? I realized I could find humor anywhere I wanted, regardless of what I’d been taught.
Just because you laugh at something doesn’t make you a “bad person.” It doesn’t make you a supporter of genocide and dictatorship. It just means you laughed. No big deal.
If you find yourself full of tension now, I urge you to revisit those videos above and do the exercise right away.
Oh wait. I almost lied to you. There was another time I laughed at at a very inappropriate time. It was just after my mother’s funeral. I stood on the wintry street in central Minnesota, watching sadly as my friends all piled into two cars to head back to their homes in Minneapolis.
I felt a desperation sweeping through, and loneliness filled my body as I heard the cars cranking over and finally starting. At the last moment before heading out, my friend Tumbleweed leaned out the window with a huge, bearded grin and said: “Happy Birthday, Garrett!”
While my friends looked on in horror and told him to shut up, I couldn’t help but burst into deep, beautiful belly laughter. He broke me out of my trance of darkness, and I’ve never let it take over my perception fully since that moment.
So what’s all this got to do with transformation and undoing yourself?
Well, for one thing, the you that you think you are isn;t the whole picture. In fact, most of it’s composed of opinions and ideas that aren’t your own, and aren’t even true.
If that’s the case, then who the hell are you, anyway? You’ll have to go deep into your body and find out for yourself.
That’s what all these exercises are for. Well, that and having a lot of fun while you learn to start flowing more with what is.
In the next post, I’ll tell you about when I first learned what letting go really means, and how you can start letting go of even the most difficult obstacles in your life. (Another secret: it takes a lot less effort than you think.)
I’ll also invite you to the live Q and A where I’ll share all about the new Radical Undoing 4 Week Intensives (next round starts May 3!)
For now, go laugh your ass off and then get some rest.
PS: Radical Undoing 101 2.0 is in the works. What that means for you is a radically updated version of the course, with extras and bonuses galore. It also means a higher price tag as we improve everything about the course experience. So if you’ve been thinking about getting it, now’s the time, because you get lifetime access to all future upgrades, and this one’s gonna be huge.
Today I promised to get into my own undoing story a little more deeply than yesterday. I’ll be telling a lot more of the story as we go, and giving you some exercises and motivation along the way.
I recently asked folks on FB what they feel is the most important factor in self transformation. What do you think they said?
The most common answer was motivation.
So, my goal with these emails, and with all the courses, workshops and live experiences is not only to give you the most powerful, effective, and satisfying transformation techniques and approaches in the known universe–but also to help keep you motivated to take action and actually DO the exercises, experiments, and adventures on a daily basis–so you can start living a more flowing and enjoyable life…right fucking now.
I want this to be so beneficial to you that it even helps you start living a better and more fulfilling life yesterday.
Yes, you read that correctly. I said I want to make your life better yesterday, as well as today and tomorrow. How the hell can I do that, you ask?
By getting you to shrug all the shit off your shoulders that really doesn’t matter. Once you do that, even the most difficult and painful of your memories will start to reveal something deeper…something more…something quite beautiful when you learn how to stop interpreting and judging, and instead, start appreciating everything about your life, and what brought you to where you are now–> waking up and taking action to make it even better.
That’s what monkeys, chips, and worlds all have in common: none of them belong on your shoulders!
(Ok, it could be cool to have a monkey on your shoulder, I agree. But don’t let him get on your back, or you’ll have real trouble trying to remove him.)
The point of all this is to get you to realize that when you focus on problems, challenges, obstacles, complaints, and other shit that brings you down, you’re not focusing on appreciating and flowing with what’s actually going on in the life you’re actually experiencing.
Once you get all those imaginary burdens out of your mind, you can start taking action and doing things that bring you tremendous joy and satisfaction. All those things you’ve always wanted to do, but make excuses for why you CAN’T. Start now by replacing all your CANTs with WONTs, and then decide to do what it takes to turn your WONTs into WILL!
Then do it.
Just like today’s exercise. This is one of the first exercises I learned after the face stretching, and I gave it the name Atlas Shrugged, to remind me of the statue of Atlas and how it’s time to let go of the news, the issues, the woes of the world, and to start doing what you can with what you’ve got.
Just pull your shoulders up to your ears as high and as tightly as you can (be careful if you have injuries…NEVER force anything). Hold them up with a lot of tension and pressure for AT LEAST one full minute. Keep breathing the whole time.
Once the minute’s up, inhale fully, pull them up even tighter, and then thrust them down while making a loud “AH” sound and exhaling fully. Then just feel the effects the exercise had on you.
Here’s a look at a brand new video I made for a special new course we’re putting together. I wanted to show it to you first, so let me know what you think. I really value hearing from you, and I write back to everyone.
When I first did Atlas Shrugged, I remember feeling so much relief in my shoulders, and in my mind. At that time, many of my old faithful allegiances to politics, saving the world, social groups, pressure from family and friends, and even my deeply ingrained habits of eating and thinking were starting to crack and crumble away. The shoulder exercise helped me to crawl out from underneath that top-heavy existence I’d caged myself in and start living my own life.
Hopefully you’ll have an easier experience than I did. I still spent a few more years searching to get free of my beliefs and start flowing with my own life.
More on that in the next post, when I explain exactly how I learned to start laughing at everything you’re not supposed to laugh at. (hint: it’s actually possible to enjoy everything, and laugh at it all–it just takes one simple adjustment most people aren’t willing to make. Are you?)
Oh yeah, and I’ll let you know about a live Q and A session on google hangouts to learn more about Undoing, the intensives, and whatever else you want to chat about.
Enjoy…because it’s your life, and it’s the only life you’ve got.
PS: If you actually tried out the exercise, leave a comment right away and let me know how it goes. What other kinds of exercises would you like to see? And keep in mind, the more you repeat these exercises, the deeper and more powerful results you’ll get.
I felt all tingly inside for a few minutes afterward, a little giddy, you know, like when you just can’t keep your lips and cheeks from grinning all over your face?
After that, I didn’t notice too much of a difference, but something had changed…even if just a little.
That tiny experiment would eventually cascade with diligent repetition and thousands more experiments just like it into a radical transformation of the way I saw everything in my life.
It may not have been as monumental as the first time ever having sex, but the first time I ever did the slow face stretching, I knew I’d found something very different from any of the other life change and consciousness exploration approaches I’d been mired in for years.
Those first 5 minutes of stretching my face led all the way to me doing this business and writing you this email right now.
I just finished an hourlong undoing session–conducted by my beautiful partner, who’s getting quite good at it now–and I figured it’s time to get more personal about how all this came to be.
After the first time I stretched my face, I noticed a small time distortion, and the hold my emotions had over me seemed to loosen up…just a little.
Instead of identifying with the sadness, anger, or even happiness, I noticed a strangely deeper level of something creeping into my awareness. Something made itself known underneath all those shifting emotions and changing mental states, I just didn’t know what the hell to call it, yet.
Here’s a vintage video of me demonstrating the face stretching, long before the days of Command Z:
There’s something so utterly simple about listening to and following the wisdom of your own body that you can manage to ignore it for years.
If you’re anything like me, you’ve made the same trade unknowingly–you traded the simple flow of your organic, embodied life for a mind overflowing with stress and complexity.
The other part of that trade that no one ever seems to talk about requires your body to bear the burden of your mental overwhelm in the form of anxiety, tension, and rigidity. Look around, you can find the rigidity everywhere…
Listen to it in the voice of the cashier at the gas station.
See it in the shoulders of the waiter bringing your food.
Taste it in the chemicals designed to make you eat fifty more chips long after you stopped feeling hungry.
Smell it in the deodorant hiding your animal nature.
Feel it in your own tensed muscles.
I’m here for one reason: to tell you you’re beautiful exactly as you find yourself right now. 100% self acceptance is a prerequisite to this whole undoing journey, so I want to inspire that in your from the start, and all along the way.
This is your wake up call to go deeper into your life, and start enjoying a hell of a lot more of it…exactly as you experience it now, and even more as you go deeper.
You can start today by setting a timer–right now–for 5 minutes. Then just stretch and move every part of your face SLOWLY. Your eyes in different directions, nostrils, cheeks, forehead, brows, lips, tongue, and jaw. Breathing deeply while you keep stretching and moving your face–SLOWLY.
After the 5 minutes, just close your eyes and feel what you can feel in your face.
In the next post, I’ll tell you about the emergency going on in your neck and shoulders, and how to get the weight of the world off your back.
The only trick here is actually doing the exercises. That’s what you’re here for, so like Tim Leary used to say: Take a chance and break your trance. This is your life. This is your consciousness. So claim it and enjoy!
Soon, I’ll tell you about another first time…before which, I had no idea that I even had a body. Yeah, it’s that weird…but true.
Leave a comment or email me and let me know how it felt when YOU did the exercise. I love hearing from you.
PS: The next round of Radical Undoing intensives starts on May 3…and I’ll be doing a free, live Q and A on google hangouts very soon, so stay tuned!
“Man, when he is merely what he seems to be, is almost nothing.” -Antonio Porchia
From the moment we are born, the world gives us the impulse–and many times forces us–to have control over our lives. Emotions, behaviors, thoughts, everything must be regulated. We enter adulthood having learned to judge every detail of our existence, evaluating ourselves based on how much control we’ve acquired in the different areas of our lives: our bodies, job, bank account, interpersonal relationships, housing, etc.
We identify all situations where we feel we have no control as problems or difficulties. We also tend to categorize people and situations that aren’t living their lives within the proper parameters of control as dangerous and to be avoided.
In Colombia, my country of origin, there’s a saying about this: It is better bad and known than good and unknown.
The paradox resides in the fact that the more we believe we have control, the less prepared we are for the times where having it is just not possible, and we feel like victims of circumstances.
Our beliefs wear down and with them our capacities to accept ourselves wither away. We all know people who seemed to be very solid in their lives, but suddenly during an unexpected moment they succumbed to madness and lost all the apparent control they had over themselves and over the lives of others.
The father of a close friend of mine–after being very proud of the way he raised his family and thinking that his sons were under his control–became very aggressive and later depressed after one of them revealed that he was gay. The man blamed his wife, the school system, and finally himself for his son’s sexual preference.
Although, if we reflect about what having control—over our bodies, our minds, our environment and the people around us—means, what we find is that it’s related to our ability to accurately predict the future. My friend’s father thought that by controlling his son’s daily routines, schedules, and attitudes, he could prevent or minimize unexpected and undesirable future situations, but of course, he couldn’t.
This raises many questions. Is having control over things a guarantee for the future? Is life predetermined? Are acts of control and repression necessary to ensure a predictable future? If so, is it satisfying and desirable to always know what the future holds?
In my own life, a powerful urge to control my physical appearance required me to repress emotions and behaviors that seemed to be against my desire for control. Ideas about my appearance dominated my mind. Whenever the scales and mirrors didn’t match up with my ideals, I felt weak, useless, and unable to accomplish anything in life.
Our lives are always transforming and will continue to do so for as long as we live. False ideas about control can make us lose our heads when reality doesn’t live up to our expectations.
Many times, the desire to control is nothing more than a desperate attempt to avoid or alleviate our underlying sense of uncertainty, which is one of our greatest fears.
Despite our best efforts to dodge the impending insecurity, all our intents to repress, dominate or control inevitably lead to disappointments and failures.
When certain of my relationships came to an end, I felt very disappointed, because I had believed that trying to control everything I could about myself and my partner would somehow guarantee that it would last forever…
Much of our beliefs about control come from distorted ideas about how life really works. It’s a lie. We think we’re in complete control of our lives, but then something unexpected comes up to disappoint our best efforts (which is going to happen at some point no matter how much we try to avoid it). Then we experience feelings of guilt and shame, which perpetuate an endless cycle of trying to control, falling apart, and then trying again over and over.
The reality is that we’re not controlling anything in this way, we’re just following instructions, obeying an external authority who gave us the erroneous beliefs in the first place. And while we’re too busy trying to control the uncontrollable, our own lives are being governed by others, and this is where we are losing the only real thing we can be in charge of: being ourselves, connecting with our own truth.
Welcoming the uncertainty, learning how to flow in all situations in life, connecting with ourselves and with the rhythms in everything we experience, and living from a position of genuine curiosity rather than from fear and obedience; these are the keys to being empowered and letting of the belief that we’re victims of our circumstances.
Working with Command Z and doing the undoing exercises every day has been leading me through a process of re-discovering myself. I’m learning to navigate the different aspects of my life without the fear of losing control. What before seemed abnormal or chaotic, I now see as essential parts of my development.
And I’ve discovered that it’s more exciting to not know what tomorrow brings than to try to control or anticipate it. I don’t care much about divination anymore because now I know from my own experiences and sensations that there is nothing to control, everything is as it is, in its right place.
Human beings are built to transform. Unfortunately, no matter how externally “successful” we are, we use only a fraction of our inherent abilities.
While we have our ideas about why this may be, the important thing is to change it.
Command Z sessions, courses, and workshops are all based on the idea that you can be much more than the limited creature you are right now. This doesn’t merely mean taking a placebo or grasping on to the next self-help or new age fad to try to “feel good” or fit in better with the crowd. It means doing real work that changes your body, mind, and emotions on a deep level.
They say you can judge the value of a scientific theory by how many previous theories it makes obsolete. The effectiveness of our techniques and expertise make most of the self-help, new age, and personal development market obsolete.
You could search for years going in circles and not find the techniques that we use at Command Z. We use them not because of any particular lineage we belong to, but because they work. And though they work differently for each person, we have the expertise to make sure that you get the most out of them.
Get in touch via my personal email and I’ll get on the phone or Skype with you for 30 minutes so we can assess your situation and inspire your transformation.
I’m sitting at a cemetery near where I live. A couple horses stand around near me, just past the fence, one eating grass, and the other licking and scratching its face on the bark of an old oak tree.
I let go and thoughts drift through caverns and containers and finally join me here near a wooden grave marker.
Last Sunday a client and I spoke about believing in things we don’t know with 100% certainty. Then we talked about abstract concepts that get almost universally accepted as solid fact.
One example is the term “the world.”
What does that mean? You assume it exists, but can you point at it? If you start to think carefully about it, you might realize that the world only exists in your head. But you act as if the world exists.
Now, what else do you believe in that you’ve never really looked into before? How about your limitations? Many of them are no more than unchallenged beliefs.
So after we talked about beliefs for awhile, I mentioned that some clients want to just get the basic benefits of undoing:
-greater awareness of your own motivations
-knowing what you really want
And that’s fine. It delivers.
There’re also a few clients who, for some reason, want to go all the way.
By that I mean to explore fully all the assumptions and beliefs you have, and to rid yourself of everything false. After he said he’d like to take things all the way, he asked me why people seem to need to believe in things, from science to religion to occultism to politics etc.
Good question, and it gave me pause to consider how and why people live out their lives in a land of abstract concepts, make-believe categories, stifling roles, and ideas of how things should be…
Two main reasons dawned on me:
Both reasons relate to a paralyzing fear.
1. The fact that you can’t rely on anything but your own perception and experience.
Your own perception is primary, and the rest is second-hand information, no matter how accurate it seems. This can be frightening to realize, simply because it’s unfamiliar and you aren’t used to sitting on your own throne.
2. No one knows what’s really going on.
You’re born. You develop into a child and then an adult human. You get told and believe all kinds of stories about what’s going on, from evolution to angry sky gods to million armed blue deities to philosophies aplenty to….
Just because you hear about and enjoy and react emotionally to a story doesn’t make it true. Even if you memorize the bible or the origin of the species or a book on brain science doesn’t mean you know the 100% truth of what’s going on here.
That can also be horrifying to realize, especially since the only person you can rely on has no idea what the hell is going on.
It makes you feel important to pretend you know what’s going on. And it gives you a sense of stability, importance, and permanence.
There’s another way to live where you don’t require concepts and beliefs. It takes a lot less effort, and you don’t need to maintain false certainties about what’s going on.
You can remember that your life is the adventure you’ve been looking for. You find it by letting go. Letting go of what? Of all those fears about what’s gonna happen if you stop being the way you think you should be and doing what you think you’re supposed to do.
We all end up in the same place anyway, so why not get a fair amount of joy just by remembering how unlikely it is to be alive, to have a body, to perceive, to feel anything at all.
Is it not utterly magnificent when you really think about it?
Here’s to your adventure!
PS: if you feel like expanding your adventures and cutting through your own bullshit, you’ve got options:
1. Esozone Codex Course: perfect to test the waters, opening up to new ways of perceiving yourself, removing some filters between you and what is, and ridding yourself of guilt.
2. Radical Undoing 101: going a lot deeper into the process, conquering social anxiety, moving through fear, going beyond your perceived limitations, following what truly excites you, and expanding your life in ways you really enjoy.
3. Body Movement Course Series for learning how to undo your own chronic tensions and internal conflicts. Make your body and mind run smoothly so your life feels more like a ride or a movie rather than a prison camp or the doldrums.
4. Direct personal training online, in Ojai, CA, and sometimes available for workshops in your area.
If you want an extended training series, please email me at: firstname.lastname@example.org to discuss what approach is right for you.