when i was a teenager living at home, my dad decided to remodel the two bathrooms upstairs.
he had never done anything like it before, but he didn’t waste time overthinking the process; after all, the first step was clear:
smash the hell out of the existing bathrooms.
i helped him a bit with that part, and let me tell you, there’s nothing quite like smashing a toilet, hammering through walls, or dragging a giant porcelain tub down the stairs and out of the house to remind you that nothing is unchangeable.
as he went on with the demo, he researched and followed up on the next step, and the next…hired people when he needed to, experimented, learned what worked, what didn’t, and ended up with two truly amazing and beautiful bathrooms.
i learned a few things watching my dad go through that process:
1. if you’re going to remodel bathrooms at night (no time during the work day), the evenings will be full of loud noises and cursing
2. and, more importantly, if you want to make something happen, you don’t necessarily need to know what step two is going to be to get started on step one.
your brain is a ravenous learning machine. it’s smarter than “you” are.
so trust it, trust yourself to learn as you go, and all you have to do is get started.
the following was written in a state of profound dissociation:
when a person is dissociated, mad, emotions just come raw, not attached to events, people or things. it’s like the weather.
the force loses its form; there’s no understanding, no story, just the building blocks. but out of those building blocks come new stories – not just the same structures that have been passed down, not just through literature, but through the very structure of how we habitually respond to the circumstances of human life.
we mustn’t limit ourselves and our mental capabilities just because some corners appear dark and scary.
the states that constitute the so-called mental disorders are important creative states for those who can handle them. if we pathologize them, we pathologize the creative imagination and the freedom of the mind to separate itself from its given culture if it sees fit to generate its own values, its own reality.
we live in a culture that claims to celebrate difference, but there is one difference that culture will never tolerate: difference in thinking. because culture IS the way you think when enough people think it. creative thought is always over and against culture.
if you take the radical undoing online course and do the undoing work with us in one of the multitude of options available (skype, email, phone, in person), here are some things you can expect:
–destroy limiting beliefs
–tap into latent resevoirs of intuitive, creative, and psychic energy
–increase vitality and health
–acquire specific skills to overcome and dissolve anxiety and tension
–discover your true goals and desires
–heal psychosomatic ailments
–transform all psychological roadblocks into stepping stones
–learn to love and enjoy the perfect being you are right now
–become a fucking wizard
“the way up and the way down is one and the same.”
it seems very rare these days, as it probably has been throughout history, that a man or woman behaves much at all like the person he imagines herself to be. most often our self images are hasty and incoherent patchworks of biology, upbringing (parents and culture) wishful thinking and self rescue fantasies in complex interaction with the conscious and unconscious minds. meanwhile, what we really are is…well, does anybody know?
to approach the problem of self knowledge (an essential counterpoint to the activity of self transformation) by adding to our self images ideas about our “true” nature or self is to invite failure – after all, who but the little self, with its constricted imagination and deep sense of inferiority, could piece together such fantastical notions as this supposed mythological “big self”? any underlying truth that might exist will not reveal itself through these ::deep:: contemplations of the little self, but through removing that so-called “self” entirely; not by moving “up”–a false and evasive upward movement into ideas, concepts, hopes or fears–but down, into truth, reality, not as we would like it to be, not as we fear it might be, but as it is.
this course is meant to facilitate a confrontation with the real.
it divides the “way down” into three stages and provides practical work for each stage on the levels of the physical, the emotional, and the cognitive. these techniques are fool proof – provided they are actually carried out.
stage 1: contraction, condensation, bitterness
this is where we begin, where we come up against the boundaries of habit, constriction, tensions and belief; here we find that growth is not merely a matter of desiring to grow; we learn about our current perceived limits as we bump up against them. we observe, allow ourselves to see, and learn to tolerate any discomfort that may arise from that seeing.
stage 2: expansion, force, evaporation
having mapped out the boundaries of the current self we begin to strategically apply “heat” in order to begin to dissolve them. this phase is often exhilarating and semi ecstatic, as we find, maybe for the first time, that apparently immovable boundaries can in fact be moved and even dismantled, provided that we apply the proper methods. we disrupt, melt away, and learn to tolerate any anxiety that may result from that melting.
stage 3: integration, circulation, equilibrium
this is where we step back, let the flames die down, and survey the remains. the emotional vapors given off by applying heat can be intense, and we want to be sure we have processed them before returning to address the next layer. we reflect, allow ourselves to adapt to the change, and begin to look for signs of the newly shaped contours of our selves, as we prepare to repeat this three step process as many times as layers of boundaries exist.
the specific contents of each of these stages will differ significantly with each individual, depending upon past and current experiences. but the techniques provided, if performed sincerely, will not fail to initiate the process, a process which is itself universal. it is the unmasking and removing of the illusions that protect us from our fear of the unknown. and what is the unknown? it is all that is, has been, and will be; and it is unknown because it cannot be known.
when we lie to ourselves and others about who and what we are, where we are, and what we know, we may succeed in momentarily protecting ourselves from fear, doubt, hurt, or misfortune; but this turning away—this turning “up” into fantasy and belief, tall tales about the quest we have already undertaken or may one day undertake–has only one ultimate result: the anchor is never actually pulled, the ship never actually sets sail, and we never actually take the night sea journey through which we can actually move beyond fear, beyond the greatest lies we tell, beyond the worst mistakes we make.
i actually kind of happened upon your site at one point and just signed up. where could i get some understanding as to what this course is actually about?
that is a great question, kate. we will have a live q & a session on justin.tv/radicalundoing on friday january 14, 2011 from 2 to 3 pm PST. also, you can ask specific questions here and we will happily leave answers in the comments section for others to benefit from as well.
the course serves as an introduction to the radical undoing work. it will provide tangible exercises, concepts, and techniques you can use to get in touch with yourself. all the techniques we recommend have one purpose. that purpose is to point you back at yourself as the source of all truth.
most people in the enlightenment, spirituality, and self development businesses will serve you heaping portions of bullshit to keep you seeking forever outside yourself.
these techniques become yours as soon as you do them. the truth you experience is your truth. this three-part course gives a bit of a framework for putting aside seeking, spirituality, and beliefs once and for all. then it begins. what begins? you begin.
the three parts can be likened to this:
1. see what is going on.
2. destroy everything false.
3. deal with the wreckage.
for example: stretch your face for 5-10 minutes. do it very slowly. move and stretch all parts of it. as you begin to stretch, you will start to “see” what the exercise does for you. you will notice all the tension that gets held in the face…all the tension it takes to wear masks for other people all day, all week, all month and all life long.
next, you will, by stretching the face, start to break apart, or destroy, some bits of that tension. as the tension breaks apart, so do the masks you have been wearing. what awaits you under all the masks?
finally, by the end of the process of face stretching for 10 whole minutes, sense and feel what is going on in your face. don’t interpret the sensations. instead, just notice them. sensing and feeling the experience of the face after the stretching process is a form of “dealing with the wreckage.”
think of how this might apply to other areas of your body and other areas of your life.
when i was younger, i thought it was possible to find the Truth. i should have known better, really: my first literary loves were the french existentialists sartre and camus, the latter of whom especially could not have spelled out the situation more clearly. i accepted their ideas on an intellectual level, and it seemed to me that the discovery of life’s meaninglessness was great news. i could never quite understand why so many others who had read these philosophers took it so hard, or wore themselves out denying it. but though i had read, i had not quite understood, and my very humanness still stood guard against a fundamental (versus merely intellectual) acceptance of the idea that behind every something was not its truth, but a deep and abiding nothing. it took undoing to finally hold me down and make me swallow it.
many modern writers on buddhism and other traditions that emphasize nothingness as a foundation of all existence attempt to pretty it up by saying, “i know, nothing sounds bad, but what they really mean is nothing like no-thing, like no specific thing, cuz it’s, like, everything, bro!” this attitude seems a bit misleading to me, even patronizing; in my experience, the nothing that resides beneath the many layers of delusion is not this mystical everything, but quite simply an absence. i can’t help but wonder if those who care to qualify nothing as a mystical all-is-one stopped peeling back the layers just a little too early. i cant blame them; mystical union, as a direct experience, is perhaps the most powerful and convincing of all delusions, and quite possibly the most exalted experience possible for a human.
but…what was it you’re supposed to do when you see the buddha on the road?