Tag: awakening

On the desperate pain of endless seeking

INITIATION? The year was 2004. Blindfolded, knees knocking, heart beating fast, maddening images of terror flashing through my imagination, I sat in the cold lobby, waiting for the initiation to start. It was the first of many I’d undergo. Maybe it was the sense of adventure, or the unfathomable curiosity about the unknown that drove my quest. I…
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NGF50: The Return of Killin’ It, with Paul Crik

“This is it!” “Fuck it…” “It is what it is.” So proclaimed our esteemed guest for this evening’s entertainments in a video from circa 2011 that I was lucky enough to find on youtube. I would later use that video, and a handful of others from his “Killin’ It” series, in Radical Undoing workshops and…
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You Can’t Eat Understanding

You’re watching the newest episode of Breaking Bad. Things start to get real when Walter kills someone. Cut to commercial. Ya know those local TV ads that run on cable sometimes? Low budget ads targeted at you and your neighbors for the car lot up the street, that carpenter guy who did your cabinets, and that gourmet…
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