Tag: adventure

Felt like I might go insane

I thought I was going crazy.  I was at a house party with a bunch of occultists and new age weirdos.  We’d just finished eating an amazing BBQ with all kinds of Turkish and Middle Eastern foods.  My friend Vandimir and I had both accidentally eaten a few strips of raw steak, mistaking the marinade…
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On the desperate pain of endless seeking

INITIATION? The year was 2004. Blindfolded, knees knocking, heart beating fast, maddening images of terror flashing through my imagination, I sat in the cold lobby, waiting for the initiation to start. It was the first of many I’d undergo. Maybe it was the sense of adventure, or the unfathomable curiosity about the unknown that drove my quest. I…
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The Day I Infiltrated an AA Meeting to Change My Brain

I was sitting in my car alone after letting out the most blood curdling scream I have ever heard come out of my body. I felt as though my face was going to tear open as it spontaneously roared thru me… Whoa, Where did that come from? I thought, my body heaving, then relaxing over…
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