“Man, when he is merely what he seems to be, is almost nothing.” -Antonio Porchia
From the moment we are born, the world gives us the impulse–and many times forces us–to have control over our lives. Emotions, behaviors, thoughts, everything must be regulated. We enter adulthood having learned to judge every detail of our existence, evaluating ourselves based on how much control we’ve acquired in the different areas of our lives: our bodies, job, bank account, interpersonal relationships, housing, etc.
We identify all situations where we feel we have no control as problems or difficulties. We also tend to categorize people and situations that aren’t living their lives within the proper parameters of control as dangerous and to be avoided.
In Colombia, my country of origin, there’s a saying about this: It is better bad and known than good and unknown.
The paradox resides in the fact that the more we believe we have control, the less prepared we are for the times where having it is just not possible, and we feel like victims of circumstances.
Our beliefs wear down and with them our capacities to accept ourselves wither away. We all know people who seemed to be very solid in their lives, but suddenly during an unexpected moment they succumbed to madness and lost all the apparent control they had over themselves and over the lives of others.
The father of a close friend of mine–after being very proud of the way he raised his family and thinking that his sons were under his control–became very aggressive and later depressed after one of them revealed that he was gay. The man blamed his wife, the school system, and finally himself for his son’s sexual preference.
Although, if we reflect about what having control—over our bodies, our minds, our environment and the people around us—means, what we find is that it’s related to our ability to accurately predict the future. My friend’s father thought that by controlling his son’s daily routines, schedules, and attitudes, he could prevent or minimize unexpected and undesirable future situations, but of course, he couldn’t.
This raises many questions. Is having control over things a guarantee for the future? Is life predetermined? Are acts of control and repression necessary to ensure a predictable future? If so, is it satisfying and desirable to always know what the future holds?
In my own life, a powerful urge to control my physical appearance required me to repress emotions and behaviors that seemed to be against my desire for control. Ideas about my appearance dominated my mind. Whenever the scales and mirrors didn’t match up with my ideals, I felt weak, useless, and unable to accomplish anything in life.
Our lives are always transforming and will continue to do so for as long as we live. False ideas about control can make us lose our heads when reality doesn’t live up to our expectations.
Many times, the desire to control is nothing more than a desperate attempt to avoid or alleviate our underlying sense of uncertainty, which is one of our greatest fears.
Despite our best efforts to dodge the impending insecurity, all our intents to repress, dominate or control inevitably lead to disappointments and failures.
When certain of my relationships came to an end, I felt very disappointed, because I had believed that trying to control everything I could about myself and my partner would somehow guarantee that it would last forever…
Much of our beliefs about control come from distorted ideas about how life really works. It’s a lie. We think we’re in complete control of our lives, but then something unexpected comes up to disappoint our best efforts (which is going to happen at some point no matter how much we try to avoid it). Then we experience feelings of guilt and shame, which perpetuate an endless cycle of trying to control, falling apart, and then trying again over and over.
The reality is that we’re not controlling anything in this way, we’re just following instructions, obeying an external authority who gave us the erroneous beliefs in the first place. And while we’re too busy trying to control the uncontrollable, our own lives are being governed by others, and this is where we are losing the only real thing we can be in charge of: being ourselves, connecting with our own truth.
Welcoming the uncertainty, learning how to flow in all situations in life, connecting with ourselves and with the rhythms in everything we experience, and living from a position of genuine curiosity rather than from fear and obedience; these are the keys to being empowered and letting of the belief that we’re victims of our circumstances.
Working with Command Z and doing the undoing exercises every day has been leading me through a process of re-discovering myself. I’m learning to navigate the different aspects of my life without the fear of losing control. What before seemed abnormal or chaotic, I now see as essential parts of my development.
And I’ve discovered that it’s more exciting to not know what tomorrow brings than to try to control or anticipate it. I don’t care much about divination anymore because now I know from my own experiences and sensations that there is nothing to control, everything is as it is, in its right place.
Human beings are built to transform. Unfortunately, no matter how externally “successful” we are, we use only a fraction of our inherent abilities.
While we have our ideas about why this may be, the important thing is to change it.
Command Z sessions, courses, and workshops are all based on the idea that you can be much more than the limited creature you are right now. This doesn’t merely mean taking a placebo or grasping on to the next self-help or new age fad to try to “feel good” or fit in better with the crowd. It means doing real work that changes your body, mind, and emotions on a deep level.
They say you can judge the value of a scientific theory by how many previous theories it makes obsolete. The effectiveness of our techniques and expertise make most of the self-help, new age, and personal development market obsolete.
You could search for years going in circles and not find the techniques that we use at Command Z. We use them not because of any particular lineage we belong to, but because they work. And though they work differently for each person, we have the expertise to make sure that you get the most out of them.
Get in touch via my personal email and I’ll get on the phone or Skype with you for 30 minutes so we can assess your situation and inspire your transformation.
I have a confession to make. I love making courses… and creating experiences that transform people’s lives for the better. But, I’m often lost as to how to explain them. I get loads of thank you letters from people so I know the course is right. But I can’t figure out how to explain any of it to someone who’s new. However, a client (Scott) who recently did an intensive with me said it well (italics added by me):
“At first, I got my feet wet with basic undoing exercises. And a session here and there. But, even doing just a small handful of these techniques, I began experiencing it. Less stress… deep relaxation… dissolving of anxiety and a deep ability to just enjoy my life.
“So, when the opportunity came up to take part in the first ever Command Z intensives… I had already experienced first hand how great this stuff was…. so I signed up. And the results were dynamite…
“The intensives started off with some good momentum and by the end of the first week you’re literally seeing your inner and outer world change (in a good way). It took my life to a whole ‘nother level. What started as some initial relaxation and other goodies snowballed into something bigger.
“When you take the intensive, you can really feel you’re going somewhere with all this. That sense of adventure. That feeling that you always had when you were a kid, the magic of every day life that died away at some point in your teen years… it just starts coming back. And it just keeps snowballing into something even greater.
“And… In all honesty my personal life was extremely hectic during the intensive… so I wasn’t even able to complete all of the intensive work each day. But, even though I was doing less than all of it… My work and home life suddenly became more enjoyable. I started to look forward to everything. It really does feel like you’re high on life (minus the cheesy motivational seminar that lasts for a week followed by sinking back into some miserable existence). The results of this stuff lasts.
“And Rather than being happy for 10 minutes now and then… and only when you think you should feel it… Happiness almost always. Without needing a reason. Joy just for the bliss of joy. No need to wait for it to come. Hear me out on this:
Living this way can not be given a price, it is your birthright.”
Ya know, maybe I’ll never figure out how to explain this stuff. But, the results are undeniable for anyone who’s gone through it. If you’d like some of that for yourself… that always-with-you feeling of excitement and joy… join me in the next round of intensives. Think about it.
30 days from now, you could be on your way to new-found happiness…and finally find a sense of satisfaction in life. Or… things could stay exactly as they are (for better… or worse). The choice is yours.
P.S. Send me an email right away to get signed up for the next round of intensives starting on March 15. I can only accept a maximum of 30 people per month (only 10 with private weekly sessions. Non-session option is $597 for this round, and this is likely the last time you’ll be able to take the intensives for that low. Email me to receive your personal invitation and interview). And I wouldn’t want you to miss it. So, contact me right away… before you forget.
His work has always stood out to me for their focus on body awareness and organic experience.
In a genre filled with fantastical thinking, wishing, and imagining, Antero’s approaches to consciousness exploration remain grounded in the body and individual perception.
Keep your body in mind while you listen to the discussion, and treat it as a jumping off point for your own individual exploration of your mind, body, perception, and life.
Antero and I have a free-flowing conversation starting with the 8-Circuit-Brain model and it’s relation to direct experience, and then we go deeper into Paratheatre, and his ParaTheatrical ReSearch project stretching over the last 3 decades.
The images above are paratheatre stills from “Dreambody/Earthbody: A Paratheatre video document by Antero Alli (2012; 80 min)”; photo credit: A. Alli.
His most recent offering is this year’s 8 Circuit Brain 8 Week Online Course, starting on March 14, 2014.
Enjoy the interview in the player or by downloading below, and let us know what you think here in the comments!
Anthony Halvorson is a client of mine from Minneapolis, Minnesota. We met a few years ago and he’s asked me to share this with you.
Now’s your chance.
I’m talking about a book that answers all your questions about life, the universe and everything…
More importantly, do you remember how it felt the last time you read something you really resonated with?
The best books are ones that answer your questions with actual data that inspires you to take effective action to get what you want.
The problem is, most people don’t know how to know what would feel deeply satisfying in their lives on a daily basis. Many of my clients are blown away when I tell them that your deepest wants are far more important than your needs.
What does that mean? It means that what you feel inspired to do is far more crucial than all those things you’ve been programmed to believe you need to do.
There’s a simple approach to breaking free from everything that keeps you from enjoying every moment of your day, and flowing with your life exactly how you’ve always wanted to.
Either I’m completely crazy, or I’m onto something…or both. But it goes like this:
1. First, destroy your expectations, ideas, and beliefs about how things are supposed to go.
2. Explore yourself, invent, and create new things, experiences, perceptions, and cultivate awareness of what you truly desire.
3. Experiment, take action, and have adventures that take you well beyond your perceived limitations and satisfy your deepest yearnings.
4. Repeat in every area of your life that doesn’t already bring you inspiration and joy.
That’s the spirit of the Art of Not Giving a Fuck…and the approach works in every direction I’ve tested it in…for myself and for all of you who’ve put in the effort to experiment.
So if you could have a book written just for you, that would help you create new experiences to satisfy all your most pressing questions, and to go beyond your limits…what questions would you want answered? It can be anything: sex, relationships, money, work, creativity, undoing yourself, health, brain change, life change, whatever you want to know.
Write me or leave a comment below with all your burning questions–that if you got a satisfying answer to, would radically change your life. If you leave a comment, you get access to the Art of NGF workshop of your choice. Just pick one out from the website and I’ll send you the password. What are the questions that have kept you up sweating all night over years of your life? What are the obstacles between you and the life you want?
I’m really looking forward to hearing about your questions, and excited to tell you about HUGE new developments in Command Z and Art of NGF that will make everything even more powerful, inspiring, and designed to give you radical results faster than anything else available.
Talk to you soon,
PS: Monday we’re doing the Lower Body undoing session. These are the most overtly powerful exercises of the entire undoing suite, not to be taken lightly, and not to be missed. I’ll get you a video with more details tomorrow. Happy Saturday night!